tiny matters within

25th November 2009

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oh- and I might move into HH's house

bowlingalleylawyer:

after she moves out and my lease runs out. she has to pay on the lease through March and I can move in January, so it would help her out and since the rent is $150 less a month, it would help me out.

the house is very very very nice- old neighborhood… big yards, sidewalks…

but I’ll need a roomie come March, so any Wilmington tumblrs- help a BAL out!

I want to come be your roomie :)  Dammit!! 

BUT, being a mommy and living here and her school and my work and her “father” are making it all very difficult…boo life!   

24th November 2009

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SOPHIE.

LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART.

CANNNOT WITH WITH ALL THAT IS IN WITH ME FIGURE OUT WHAT THE HELL I WAS THINKNING HAVING A CHILD WITH THAT MAN WHO IS HER FATHER?! 

A COMPLETE, RIDICULOUS, ASS. 

UGH!

MY RANT HAS ENDED.

THANK YOU AND GOOD NIGHT..

23rd November 2009

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being broke sucks a dick.

bowlingalleylawyer:

and not the good way/kind.

you have nailed that right on the head.

and not the good way/kind. :/ 

21st November 2009

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are we still wearing cords this year?

(via bowlingalleylawyer)

we better be because I have a brand new pair of skinnies in brown, hanging in my closet!! 

21st November 2009

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One Year Ago Today.

bowlingalleylawyer:

One year ago today her boyfriend called me to tell me my boyfriend was cheating on me.
One year ago today my entire world was turned upside down.
One year ago today I lost everything that was important to me.
Everything changed forever.

Heart shattered and hopes destroyed, I limped along positive I’d never make it, confident I didn’t want to. I whined and cried to tumblr. I reached out to my friends and they turned their backs. I still don’t have relationships with them like I did before the break up. I’ve never figured that one out. I finally took my wrecked psyche and bloated body to the gym. And again and again. I started to get better, eventually. I’ve had some major setbacks, inevitably.

In many ways, my life is better than it was before the break up. But mostly, honestly, it isn’t. I’m no longer in love with Drew, but I am lonely all the time. I miss my house and yard and dog. I miss having someone there. I miss someone telling me they love me. I miss the hugs. I miss his parents. Most of all I miss the stability and the sameness and comfort. Yes, I miss the boring.  I miss feeling settled. I miss I miss I miss…..

Today is my friend’s wedding. I’m not going. Instead I am going to wear myself out in the gym. Maybe go down to the beach and look at the ocean. Then I’m going to make myself a nice dinner. And I’m going to cry. I am now. But it’s ok. I think I am supposed to.

It’s been a year.
I can’t believe it’s been a year.

and you have become one of my favorite people on tumblr!! 

and we do have to get together and i know that i keep saying that, but just yesterday i was saying that “i’m going to call christy and make definate plans to hang out with her!”

you are an amazing person and it’s their loss!!  and if you need to talk or just want to cry, you have my number…but, today is your day…just know that you have lots of people that care about you here :D